farewell

This has been me all weekend. Rain rain rain makes me lazy lazy lazy.
This reminds me of my grandpa who always wears shirts without knowing what they say or what's on them. I love old people.

Eva Green is so beautiful. There's something about black and white photos of women smoking cigarettes that always draws me in for some reason. I wish I had some deep prolific explanation of why this is but sadly, this is not the case.

I found my copy of "Panic in Needle Park" last night that I completely forgot I had. If you haven't seen this I highly suggest you do. Its one of my favorite movies and so well done.
Jamie and Allison. Always so good.

Sam Riley can you just be my boyfriend plz?




I think I'm getting sick. No bueno. I woke up with the worst sore throat ever which is either due to smoking too many cigarettes (still quitting just not this weekend) or allergies or death approaching. Per usual.
Today is a nice day what to do what to do.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with these pictures.

say what!

Rough.

Aww!

Below are some pictures from my phone that were taken either when I was drunk in Brooklyn or still living in my painkiller-coma during my visit to Virginia.

Real Talk

Serious True Vision

LOLOLO!

Not being able to stomach most people I have resorted to dating myself. Here I treated myself to a vegan banh-mi and took it to the waterfront. ROMANCE.

Have you ever seen a cat this cute? NO.

EMERGENCY UPDATE:

Thank you Gawker for enlightening me on this new fad called "Electroejaculation" per murder story of D.C.'s Robert Wone and why they think Wone's friends—a "polyamorous" gay threesome—stabbed him to death.

Among the mysteries of Wone's death—aside from the lack of blood, the paramedics' suspicion that his body had been "showered, redressed, and placed in the bed" they found him in when they arrived, and the needle marks indicating that he had been injected with something before he died—is the fact that semen was found in and around the purportedly straight, married man's anus. His own semen.

WOW GUYZ. Now for some Wiki-definition time: Electroejaculation:

Electroejaculation is usually carried out under a general anesthetic. An electric probe is inserted into the rectum adjacent to the prostate. The probe delivers a slight electric current that stimulates nearby nerves, resulting in contraction of the pelvic muscles and ejaculation. This procedure is used frequently with large mammals, particularly bulls and some domestic animals, as well as humans who have certain types of paralysis or erectile dysfunction.

In other news, I was seriously touched while watching this video of Mickey Hayes- probably the coolest kid ever with or without progeria. Just disregard the ending...it kind of freaked me out.

You inside me My fingers down your throat This is a nightmare But I won't stop it.

Sad things in life.

What we made out of light
The light would not have
So we hollowed out a grave
Where light has forever set
--Enderby

I saw their lives curl upward like a wave

And break. And after all it had not broken–
It might have broken even across the grave
Of tendencies unknown and questions never spoken.

-Eliot

The white blankets in the closet
The red blankets in the bed
An infant in his mother
His mother in pain
The father in the corridor
The corridor in the house
The house in the city
The city in the night
The death in a cry
And the infant in the life
--Prevert

Alabama: Did I do my part ok?
Clarence Worley: Bamaloo you were perfect.
Alabama: Like a ninja?
Clarence Worley: Like a ninja.

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If you say so.
That's real.
Ice Cube?



This is terrifying.



I don't know whether to feel really awkward or happy about the new Grizzly Bear music video. While I was laughing I was also semi-afraid of what was going on. I guess you assholes can decide for yourselves.

HOMESICK

I miss Miss Morgs. Summer is not summer without this lovely lady on a day to day basis.





Santiago's video he made while visiting the city. Check out my brief appearance at 2:53!

Scratch My Palms; There's Blood on My Hands

PJ Harvey is so beautiful. I think it's the whole Patti Smith small boy body frame, the "i don't really give a fuck" attitude, and thrashing herself around feverishly that really gets me. She once described her look as "that combination of being quite elegant and funny and revolting, all at the same time." I wish I looked this cool everyday. Time to lose 20 pounds and wear smeared make-up.

There is that faint resemblance..
Want this jacket.
Want this boyfriend.
I'm into this whole gothic thing lately, I need to figure out a way to transfer it into my summer wardrobe...I think I'm going to cut more hair off and dye it black.
I've been listening to wayyyy too much Manson lately, being in the 0.5% of people out there who still love him. His new cd, however, not so good. I'm sticking to Antichrist Superstar and Smells Like Children.

shit lovers, this is true love

I don't remember where I came across the picture of this girl but she's so incredibly stunning. Why is this human not in my life?
I guess this is what typographers find funny?
I'm into it. I need to draw up or find something along these lines to get done.
For some reason I've been really into almost dead looking portraits of people lately. I think I want to stop eating and start looking like PJ Harvery.
time for some blood and zombies and shit.

In other news. I seriously hate everyone right now. I'm bored with people, I'm bored with this fucking New York City, I'm sick of headaches and not having a job. Not only that but I have been having the worst brain tremors ever lately and am either becoming epileptic or losing my mind- oh wait that last one has already happened. Typing is even hard. I feel like this poster. I want to just gauge my eye balls out. I have of recently become terrified of leaving my apartment and dealing with humans. I had this dream last night I was looking for something in this black water at night and kept pulling up ropes of dead people and giant thrashing worms. I'm about to check myself into an asylum or rehab or something. I just cannot deal.

I watched this movie last night and basically decided that this girl is the sad reality of my life. It was extremely well done however and I suggest you fuck holes rent it or whatever you do.